The Arrow is soaring AND the Universe has been speaking to me through Pinterest lately, LOUDLY (this is another post). I have shared in a previous posts that for me I receive my messages, especially reinforcement and guidance, from The Universe in a number of different ways. I shared the in my last post I had been feeling very overwhelmed with a few things in my life. Very overwhelmed. I also shared that I had been mediating and praying and trying oh so very hard to let the universe work its serendipity and magic. That coming of last that I felt like and arrow being launched.
On Good Friday’s I tremble. Especially for the last eight years after I had a near death experience in 2008 (more on this in another post) On Good Friday I listen to a Black Spiritual hymn entitled “Were you there when they crucified my lord” The chorus of the song is Ohh, sometimes it causes me to tremble. Listening and singing to this song it takes me back to this Good Friday in 2008 and I still do tremble physically and spiritually.
A friend and I were catching up the other day and the conversation had me reflecting upon the question; Are we human “doings” or are we human “beings?” Are our lives more consumed with “doing?” Or are our lives more consumed with “being.” We are all “human doings” to some extent. We need to do things, this is part of human condition. We keep to do lists. Many of us seem to run and organize our lives based on our to-do list. I’m not saying we don’t need to do lists. However, many of us seem to lose ourselves in our to-do list. Our to-do lists become ends in themselves rather than a means to an end. Our to-do lists come to define us and our feelings about ourselves.
This quote hit me hard and the other day when I stumbled upon it. I shared in a post-a week or so ago about a series of insights that had come to me and how many dots had connected for me. Many of those insights revealed just how much I am actually “in my head,” and have been for all my life. Five decades later I am realizing the degree of adultification that was a part of my childhood. The result being I have been very much in my head for much of my life.
Even after nearly 8 years of daily meditation, yoga five or six times a week, numerous spiritual retreats, studying Rieki , studying Kundalini, and even studying with numerous Masters and Hawaiian Kahuna’s I am literally gob smacked at the realization of how much I am still in my head.
Thus I found this quote beautiful, for even for Einstein had to get out his of head … and when he got “out of his head” he found truth.
Here is to all of us spending less time in our heads, more time in our hearts, more time in the silence and finding more truth.
Today, in meditation, was one of those wondrous days. The Dots connected! Many Dots connected for me. Dots that had been collected for many years. Dots that had been reinforced throughout my journey. Dots that had become very large and very uncomfortable as I looked back at stages of my life, and as looked to where my life is now.
Many of us on the “spiritual path,” talk about “doing the work.” This is the time and effort we spend reflecting and analysing ourselves, and our past experiences. We do this so we can understand thoughts, behaviours and patterns that have, and do, block our progress as to where we want to be going in our lives and what we want to be manifesting in them.
For me the Dots that connected today were all around my ability to truly receive. To receive gifts from others, and from the universe. Like so many of us I came to realize that the blockages I had, had come from vows I had made with myself at a very young age and that I have been honouring for nearly 50 years. It is said that “awareness is curative.” I am not sure I’m fully cured, but I am now certainly fully aware. Parts of this awareness are heartbreaking, looking back and now understanding the choices that were made and the outcomes that were realized. Parts of this awareness are liberating, enlightening, now being able to have some understanding of why many things have happened the way they have. And in this awareness there is indeed much power.
Sometimes we wonder, I know I certainly have at times, is it all worth it? Would it not be easier to step off the spiritual path? Days like today, when the Dots connect, when it all seems to make sense, when you can see a clear path as to why you have arrived in the spot you are in precisely now, the question of was it worth it is absolutely moot. Because even now as the awe of those moments of The Dots connecting and the insights provided lessens a little bit, the fact that they happened only shows me that yes it is all worth it.
I know this is merely a stage in the journey, yet it is a stage that I celebrate for I have received much today and I am grateful for that. I look forward to the next stages of the journey and the Dots that will be collected so that those too can connect.
Life has been busy and at times overwhelming, but it is this way for all of us right now is it not? And life and events do seem to getting faster and more urgent. But again this is the same for all of us right now? I have been feeling the urge to write and reconnect again for a while but something was always coming up, events always seemed to be getting in the way … and something happened the other morning that crystallized recent events for me …
I lost my iPhone.
Which for me as a consultant (in my day job) and living a fairly mobile life these last few years it is my connection with many people and especially many of those I care deeply about. Thus, this was not a good thing. Not a good thing at all.
So after retracing my foot steps and getting a bit frantic I logged into iCloud. For those of you who do not know Apple and the iPhone have this feature in iCloud called “Find My iPhone,” specifically for situation like this. So sure enough, I logged into iCloud from my laptop and located my phone. Yes, it was somewhere in my building. I tried calling it, texting to it, but I was getting no response. I then resorted to lost mode. Lost mode allows you to send a message to the phone saying it is lost, providing a phone number and a message for whoever has the phone to contact you. So this part of the story had a happy ending, I was called and reunited with my phone.
As I sat down to log off of iCloud I found myself wishing that I had a lost mode button, a “Cosmic Lost Mode Button.” I realized I had been a bit lost lately. More like unfocused. I have been fortunate to be bearing witness to a tremendous amount of activity, serendipity, wondrous energy and elevation and have been feeling like I am not moving as quickly as the times around me right now. I have been feeling a bit lost. Like I am not as on course as I should be, not as focused as I would like to be, not as connected as I would like to be.
F.S. – as a newbie to WordPress I prematurely pressed “publish” on the this post. The following is how it was meant to be …
I share the following post from someone I am very grateful to have as friend. I have been privileged to share in parts of his journey and bear witness to some of his transformation. In this post he shares very directly and bluntly what lead him to make changes in his life. From my point of view these are not just changes, they are TRANSFORMATION. Transitive change, in whatever its form and shape it takes, always inspires me with hope. Hope that all who truly want too can aspire to become the person they are truly meant to be. To step fully into the lives they wish to live.
Enjoy this post … to the transformation within all of us …
Are You Ready to Change?Are you ready to change your life?I was! There was a point not too long ago that I was frustrated, wanted more, wasn’t truly happy and had HAD ENOUGH! Most of those I interacted with frequently had no clue that behind the smile, fun times or attempts at humour I was basically sad, overstressed, felt like a failure at “adulthood” and “relationships” and crying inside. Even the few that I became quite close to at times didn’t know. I was good at covering it up, hiding it, whatever; no one knew!Then there came a point near the mid-point of this summer when it blew up inside of me and I knew I had to change; change the way I lived, change the way I thought and the direction I was going. I wanted my dreams, I wanted BEST and I wanted life! My goal was to create the life I’d always dreamed of, and the mere thought of it paralyzed me in fear. But when my turning point came I knew in my heart I was ready to change my life. Even though I KNEW I had to change I questioned if I was ready to change. Here are 10 ways that I knew was I was ready to change my life: